Hard to accept

It's hard to think that it's been a year since i started to really accept everything that i allowed myself to be put through. It might not seem as big and scary to other people, but when it gets in depth when all of the facts are laid out on the table, it's easier to see why everything was so traumatizing with my relationship with Hero. I'm relieved that he hasn't tried to talk to me since i put my foot down, about how we could never be friends and how much he'd hurt me. I'm not sure he could ever understand the extent of the amount of bullshit that he put me through. But I still think that the hardest part is knowing that I put myself in that position, that at some point much earlier I should've gotten out of it. That I, the person who never wants to be a victim, victimized myself. Hard to fathom that I've done that. That I in essence hurt myself too.