Fake it till you make it

"I can't do that, I just can't!" I exclaimed, "Out of the question!"

"That's what you signed up for, not doing it is not an option!" the Director recanted.

Yes, i knew that that is exactly what I had signed up for but now, that the time was upon me, it seemed wholly impossible.

"No, No, No, No, NO! I will not kiss him! EVER!"

The Director storms off, not wanting to deal with me. I know I know I did sign up for this, I showcased myself exquisitely exactly to get this part, but I didn't realize how much this 3 second act would effect me. I have never done a stage kiss, and even though I don't really dislike my male counterpart I don't want to expose myself to him and the audience in that way. Is it because of my lack of confidence? Or my own perceived lack of my sensuality? I honestly don't know. Perhaps I really just don't want to. But the choices are do it, or be black listed and the latter is really not an option. So I suck it up. My false pride allows me to immediately apologize to the Director, even though it's likely he still loathes me. Here goes. Hot lights, Heavy costume, Tense hands, Close the eyes, and Pucker up.