secrets

how many are really meant to be kept

if you leave them alone inside of you, they could destroy everything you have and are

sometimes, i listen to or watch sad songs and movies so i can temporarily break my heart. it feels better to cry and let out the excess emotion rather than bottle it up and release it onto the person i care most about.

i wish that i had more motivation and inspiration to write my short story collection, it kills me that i feel unable to do something i adore and it kills me more to know i'm not trying hard enough.

i have opinions about the people i love that i keep inside because i'm terrified that if i tell the whole truth i'll be abandoned like in the past.

i am so desperate for permanent connections with people, but in the back of my mind i feel unworthy of them.

i've pushed away the people who care about me most just to make sure that pretty much no matter what i do, they aren't leaving.

i want to lose weight but eating makes me feel better in that second.

i sometimes wonder if i'm so anxious, desperate and resistant to finding/starting a family because i've never really felt the sense of family that most people have. it's an alien concept to me.

i show myself as so confident, but it's just a way to make me feel better about myself on a daily basis.

i love him, more than i know how to describe, and sometimes i worry that someday it'll fade, and i can't stand the thought of being without him

those are some of my own secrets, i suppose they aren't so secret anymore